Day Fourteen of August

Please stay by me.

I cant promise i'll be good

cause my will is weak.

but i'll get better a little by little

if you hold on to me with encouragement

my faith will stay

to learn to survive and love.

and no more a letdown.

G. M. S.

The two love and a principle i need to embrace in life.

How i wish

How i wish

i was a simple boy
with a ordinary life
worked hard and get good grades
grow up as a simple man
and get a stable rice bowl

at the age of 28
marry a woman who dont nag
have 2 kids
with names like hayley/rachael or jason/kyle
and goes to church every Sunday to embrace God
and become someone they want to be

or

be a boy of dreams
becoming a man of success
living the rich and style
playing with desires
with women and more
scandalous and
maybe find a meaning in life then

Afterall its better than being a halfway ass
not knowing what he wants in life
bitching about his life.

Day ten of August

Its not the first time
messing up great opportunities given to me
letting down those who helped me out
even though i told myself every decision we made all depends on ourselves,
i just don't have the will to carry on
in the end
i'm self hated

hazardous and broken


pathetic.

#@!*eV)#d&Q!$(+ ----> (:

If we die this way, dull and ugly, no one will remember our names.


Life is much more than this,


but its short.


So spend very moment wisely
for the fun, pain and for your desires.

The stars that formed the bond

Well, its been long since i last blogged.

Was away for holiday, went to somewhere far from city life.

Things were much at a slower pace, yet time passes like flashes through your mind.

Instant,

but memorable.

Beaches, gushy little waves, soft white sand, people, smiles and yea... tranquility.

Though

Mr big glory Sun wasn't there to give some heatwaves for the children to be baked crispy brown.

And Mrs Cloud was having a terrible heartache not seeing Mr big glory Sun.

So, she sprinkled her tears on the children on the last day.

Drenched but not soaked, these children still enjoyed their ending soon trip.

Fun, joy and laughter.

They were there for each others.

And out of it,

they knew that the future is unknown to all

and before any changes come along,

they just want to cherish the present.

Well,

at least thats what one of the children

felt

Cry me a river

Truth or lies, nevertheless be it called facts in mind


there is no mercy in love


should i say, the existence of the love, is questionable from the beginning.



judgmental some say, but should they seen it through


nothing but ugly nature of



us, human beings




Desires.




to love or be loved, mere acts of filling up
our empty souls,
with self indulgence



sinked and bled for self selective target of love



all forms of pleasure; envy lust vengeance.



Even so, we


can never ever


forsake these so called sins.



All because we are human beings




so they say that, thats our saving grace.




But i wonder,


if


they have ever see


Love

as a felony?



for every moment


the pendulum swings


millions of hearts and souls stole.



Yet i wonder,


why


am i not capable of indulging these



special "one" and forever thoughts

capable of breaking me down



that i lust for much to say


please stay closer to my heart




like other human beings?



In the end
I can only play along
like mind games

with my heart love-dead.